Grieving

I've had plenty of practice grieving. Throughout my life, whenever major change happened, if I didn't say goodbye to the old in a thorough and meaningful way, grieving the loss of what was, I could not fully embrace the new thing coming. Whether that was a move, job change, new baby, way of life, etc., I had to grieve well. Maybe that's because I'm sentimental and connected to my emotions or maybe it's because I'm human.

I've walked my kids through many transitions and grieving. Keeping the dialogue open and allowing for grieving behavior has been important. It's never a pleasant process, but we are not strangers to it. These days, I'm glad we've had some practice. I'm making some decisions that are causing great change, loss, and ultimately grieving for all of us. As raindrops make their way down my windowpane, it feels like a reflection of my heart. A little cloudy and grey, water droplets falling, a chill in the air, but necessary and beautiful in the end. The sun is shining right above that cloud cover. So I'll be in this moment and I'll let my kiddos be in theirs and sometimes I'll jump right into their moment with them . . . whenever I have just a little extra to give. And we'll all try to remember the clouds will part and the sun is still shining up there. But snuggling up and eating Breyers rocky road icecream and playing minecraft for hours and taking naps when we need them are allowed without guilt through this season of change.