Alignment

Growing up in a system that asked me to follow a set of rules and a person in charge rather than learning to trust my intuition and my connection and personal communication with God messed with me in a big way. It's part of the reason I learned to be an external compliant person and an internal resistor.

I'm learning. As my world is dramatically shifting, everything feels uncertain when I fall back into expecting someone will tell me what, when, and how to do it. Or when I'm waiting for someone with authority to tell me that what I'm deciding is ok or punish and shame me if it's not. Then I remember that's what I'm breaking out of. I check back in at my center where Divinity and humanity mingle. In there, in my beautiful inner world, I find insight, peace, affirmation, and confirmation of the steps I need to take and decisions I need to make. When I come to peace there, it doesn't matter who agrees or affirms, or disagrees and condemns for that matter.

I am choosing to move forward in order to live out the most authentic me possible while holding tightly to my love and connection with Creator and interacting with his very Spirit that indwells me. It is how I am learning to line up my actions with the things that are alive in me, the Life waiting to come forth. Liberation is a painful and wonderful journey.