I LIVED
This is one of my very favorite inspiring songs. It has been on repeat in my mind all day. I Lived by OneRepublic.
I've had a beautiful and difficult few days. Beautiful, because of the amazing relationships I have in my life, the kind, funny old men I met at the coffee shop, and the incredible new experience of Hobie Sailing and Paddleboarding (more on that later).
Difficult, because I'm working through some intense trauma history with our counselor. Lots of tears on and off through the last couple days. Once again, I realize why people don't deal with their shit and keep trying to survive with pain, habits, anger, fear, walls, unhealthy patterns. Dealing is hard. Change feels impossible. The road through the dark inner places is scary. And we can't do it alone.
It is time for me. I have the right people surrounding me. I feel ready for the wounds to be reopened so they can be cleaned out and finally heal. I refuse to simply survive. I will fully heal and fully LIVE!
I LIVED
This is encouraging to read (I'm really glad I started following!). God gave me the word "healing" for this year. This is something I wrote about it, just thought I'd share. :) http://logicalfolly.blogspot.com/2014/12/healing.html
ReplyDeleteA lesson we can learn from the toddlers in our lives... humans resist cleaning up their own shit... but it's part of "growing up"
ReplyDeleteAlso, Traci, you should check out my friend Kari's blog:
ReplyDeletehttp://www.karipatterson.com/sacredmundane/