Recovery and Salsa

I never learned to dance.  But I imagine this recovery journey is a little bit like learning how to salsa dance.  I can't say I'm a great follower.  I can certainly say I have trust issues. And the idea of being free enough to sway my hips (which is an important part of salsa dancing) is about enough to make me have a panic attack. Learning how to follow the lead of the Spirit and trust the way I need my body to move or relax in this healing journey has been more than tricky. I'm falling all over the place trying to choreograph my own dance moves so as not to have to stay tuned in E V E R Y   S I N G L E   M O M E N T instead of flowing and following the cues of the Spirit and letting my body sway with Spirit's movement when he leads me to twirl and dip.  

This is what the trusty Internet says is the first rule for a follower in learning Salsa dancing:

  ¨Move when the leader tells you to. As the follower, you must be attuned to what the leader is directing you to do.  Pay attention to all the leads that your partner gives you and move instinctively in the direction that he is pushing you in.

• Do not lead or pull your dance partner around.  As the follower, you should wait for his lead and follow in line with the dance."   - wikiHow

And now I'm laughing out loud.  Epic fail.

My chiropractor is asking me to be a bit more active as we are trying to discover where the problem areas still persist when I'm doing my ¨normal¨ life stuff.  I am definitely making progress.  I am definitely not 100%.  

Prepping for and getting school started last week wiped me out physically and emotionally. Pain and exhaustion were the reward for a wild first week of salsa dance lessons with 3 monkeys!  There are still certain things like house cleaning and interacting with groups of people that completely deplete me.  Thank you for being patient with me as I slowly progress. I'll still be saying no to most things. When I say yes, I've counted the potential cost. I'm learning to enjoy what I can, trying to rest when I can, and trust the leader in my dance called recovery.

Cha cha cha!