Determined

There are many words to describe me.  Determined is the word of the week.

I am determined to heal.  Fully.

I am determined to feel.  Everything.

I am determined to live in the moment and enjoy the people I'm with and the beauty of what is in the present.

I am determined to be full of hope and inspiration.

My body is healing from the car accident.  I'm still sore but today I only took half the amount of ibuprofen that I took yesterday.  Sneezing still hurts like heck and I get tired more quickly as my body is using so much extra energy to heal bruises and muscles and ligaments.  I am grateful for the genius of our bodies.  They were made to heal.

Emotions are another story.  The last three days have felt like an emotional train wreck in my head.  I can't focus long enough to journal it out.  I haven't had many conversations that have brought much clarity to what I'm feeling.  It's jumbly.  So I'm chalking it up to the aftermath of a traumatic experience and I'll ride this wave of emotion to the shore.  Then I'll lay on the sand in the warm sun and probably cry my eyes out and feel all better.  Because I'm determined to feel . . . better.

That's the view from the window of my soul tonight.