Waves of Emotion

I tell my students that emotions are like waves. If we can remember that nothing lasts forever and this feeling won't last forever and fall won't last forever then it is easier to weather the rise and fall of the wave of emotion. I'm reminding myself of that as I snuggle up in bed until much later than I "should."

I'm pretty sure I have bear blood in me. When my kids are old enough, I've determined to ride out a fall completely doing what my body is asking for. And if it asks me to stay in bed until 2:00 pm every day for a month, I want to do it without feeling guilty. Right now, I can't. I'm snuggling in much more than I feel able to get away with. The problem is exacerbated by the guilt feelings that rise from hearing my kids on netflix and minecraft as I can't pull myself out of bed. It's the feeling that I'm missing moments that count. It goes back to a long time struggle for me of feeling like I'm failing as a mom. I kick that one most of the year . . . until I can't get out of bed and it comes flooding back into focus. That too is a wave. Ride it and let it crash, Emie.

I get out of bed late, start my day late, have a few moments of connect and noticing the beauty of fall and then I'm back in my favorite spot through the dark fall and winter months. I was really hoping this one would be different. Oh well. It won't last forever. A new year is right around the corner.